Today was the day I was scheduled for a c-section to have the girls. Instead I am preparing for Morgan to come home tomorrow from the NICU, and just got the word that Riley has decided to step it up and should be home either Saturday or Sunday.
How excited am I??? VERY !!!
I am now thinking of the million things I need, want, and have to have done before tomorrow. House cleaned to MY LIKING, the bedroom organized, the changing table moved, all laundry done, and the car vacuumed. Yeah the last one is just a pet peeve that has been annoying me cause it's messy and I hate it. I deal with it, and part of it being messy is my own fault but it still erks me, ya know.
So that is the news. I am still flying high.. It's killing the ache of not being able to go see them tonight and having to leave there last night 5 minutes after I got there cause Aiden was with a sitter and having a fit. It's not like him to just cry and cry and that is what he did.. Cried and cried and cried, so I left the girls knowing there ok and went to rescue my little man. I got there and he was a bit whiny but once we got home he was ok, until he got super over tired then he was a beast to get to bed.. UGH
I do believe my baby boy (who is not so little anymore) had his first episode of separation anxiety and missed his mommy.
For having a rough day yesterday, today has some what made up for it. Morgan will be home tomorrow and Riley this week end. Our family will all be under the same roof, how much better can it get. (Well unless someone has the lottery numbers they can share with me?? Hmmm )
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
October 9, 2007
One full bottle, two full bottles, three full bottles then four... LOL
Yes Morgan took 4 in a row, actually 6 in a row if you count before midnight (and I do) YAY. This was the other day and then she got her first tubby (by me) yesterday and I feed her again and she took almost a full bottle. I think the bath took a lot of energy out of her, the poor little thing.
SHe is doing so well that they now changed her feeding schedule to a PRN (as needed) so she can sleep and wake when she wants to and eat what she can. If she sleeps for 5 hours and then decided not to eat they will gavage feed her and if she does this too often she will return to an every 4 hr schedule. However if she does well with it then we are looking at her coming home Friday.. That is in 3 more days. I am so excited to have her coming home. I sware now I can think of 1000 things I need to do, like straighten out the damn bedroom.. UGH
As for Miss Riley, well she took a full bottle for me last night at 9, then fell fast asleep. After that she took more then half from all her bottles which is good for her since she was only taking 5cc's a few days ago. We think she'll be home not long after Morgan. A week or less, but it's going to be weird having one there and one here. Visiting the NICU might become a bit more complicated, but then again daddy will be home from work so maybe it will work out just fine.
As for me well last Friday i started taking Reglan to help with my milk since I am not a very good dairy cow after all. After 4 days on it I stopped taking it last night before I jumped out of my own skin. When you start taking it, the 1st day you take 1 pill the 2nd two and the 3rd to the 12th day you take three, then day 13 you take 2 and day 14 you take 1. Well i made it to day 4, and my second dose and decided NO MORE. I was feeling very weird, restless, anxious, and had insomnia really bad. No matter what I did i couldn't get comfy and felt like I had restless leg syndrom all over my body. It was terrible. Then I was driving last night and was really short of breath, I was jittery, and my vision was blurry to the point I had to pull over. I was getting a head ache (which I still have) and just feeling out of sorts. It obviously had to be the meds so I looked it up on the internet. YUP it was the meds.. I am not one who usually gets any of those random side effects drugs say you can get, but this time I had a ton of them. I skipped the 3rd dos last night and haven't take it again. I still have the head ache like I said but the jitters have gone away for the most part and my vision has improved. I don't feel like I am going to drive off the road now or tear my skin off.
All I can say is it was all for a good cause and I did everything I could to help myself get milk for my girls but I am not going to sacrifice my health for something I am not sure will even work. And I don't think I could of taken another day feeling like I was feeling any way.
It may work for some people and god bless them if it does but if anyone has taken it and had the reaction I have had then I am sure you will agree with me. No Reglan for this chick!!
I look at it this way.. My girls have been getting my mil even if it's not a lot. They get at least 2 bottles a day each of my milk and the rest formula. That isn't so bad. As long as I can keep it up I will and they say the first few days are the absolute best and the first 3 weeks are the most important for them to get all the good stuff.
So to all you bad dairy cows out there, you can add another member. To all you over abundent cows.. Pphhhhffffttttt is what I say to you.. lol :oP
I am about to pack up Aiden and bring him to his auntie's then go in to see the girls so if anything changes I will let ya know..
Yes Morgan took 4 in a row, actually 6 in a row if you count before midnight (and I do) YAY. This was the other day and then she got her first tubby (by me) yesterday and I feed her again and she took almost a full bottle. I think the bath took a lot of energy out of her, the poor little thing.
SHe is doing so well that they now changed her feeding schedule to a PRN (as needed) so she can sleep and wake when she wants to and eat what she can. If she sleeps for 5 hours and then decided not to eat they will gavage feed her and if she does this too often she will return to an every 4 hr schedule. However if she does well with it then we are looking at her coming home Friday.. That is in 3 more days. I am so excited to have her coming home. I sware now I can think of 1000 things I need to do, like straighten out the damn bedroom.. UGH
As for Miss Riley, well she took a full bottle for me last night at 9, then fell fast asleep. After that she took more then half from all her bottles which is good for her since she was only taking 5cc's a few days ago. We think she'll be home not long after Morgan. A week or less, but it's going to be weird having one there and one here. Visiting the NICU might become a bit more complicated, but then again daddy will be home from work so maybe it will work out just fine.
As for me well last Friday i started taking Reglan to help with my milk since I am not a very good dairy cow after all. After 4 days on it I stopped taking it last night before I jumped out of my own skin. When you start taking it, the 1st day you take 1 pill the 2nd two and the 3rd to the 12th day you take three, then day 13 you take 2 and day 14 you take 1. Well i made it to day 4, and my second dose and decided NO MORE. I was feeling very weird, restless, anxious, and had insomnia really bad. No matter what I did i couldn't get comfy and felt like I had restless leg syndrom all over my body. It was terrible. Then I was driving last night and was really short of breath, I was jittery, and my vision was blurry to the point I had to pull over. I was getting a head ache (which I still have) and just feeling out of sorts. It obviously had to be the meds so I looked it up on the internet. YUP it was the meds.. I am not one who usually gets any of those random side effects drugs say you can get, but this time I had a ton of them. I skipped the 3rd dos last night and haven't take it again. I still have the head ache like I said but the jitters have gone away for the most part and my vision has improved. I don't feel like I am going to drive off the road now or tear my skin off.
All I can say is it was all for a good cause and I did everything I could to help myself get milk for my girls but I am not going to sacrifice my health for something I am not sure will even work. And I don't think I could of taken another day feeling like I was feeling any way.
It may work for some people and god bless them if it does but if anyone has taken it and had the reaction I have had then I am sure you will agree with me. No Reglan for this chick!!
I look at it this way.. My girls have been getting my mil even if it's not a lot. They get at least 2 bottles a day each of my milk and the rest formula. That isn't so bad. As long as I can keep it up I will and they say the first few days are the absolute best and the first 3 weeks are the most important for them to get all the good stuff.
So to all you bad dairy cows out there, you can add another member. To all you over abundent cows.. Pphhhhffffttttt is what I say to you.. lol :oP
I am about to pack up Aiden and bring him to his auntie's then go in to see the girls so if anything changes I will let ya know..
Saturday, October 6, 2007
October 6, 2007
FULL BOTTLES.. YAY
Morgan took a full bottle for me yesterday and Riley took 20 ml's. How excited was I?? I think I did a jig.. Well I told Riley if she would take atleast 20 I'd dance a jig for her, and she did so I did too. LOL
Then today.. (drum roll) guess who surprised there mommy and took a full bottle.. YES Miss Riley Lorene. I came in and the nurse told me and I almost fell down. I was so excited that it made me hyper. By the end of the night she took one full and almost a second full feed. Morgan has come close too. They are catching on, it's my pep talks telling them this is all they need to get sprung and out of that place.
The nurse tonight said that she has twins before that did the same thing, that they told the parents that in about a week and a half they might be close to going home, then she got the honor of calling them two days later to tell them one of there girls was coming home and the second twin went home the next day. It's like a switch she said, it clicks on and they just get it, so here is hoping our switch clicks very soon and out little ones are home in there own crib driving us crazy really soon... I miss them.. Until then I am off to get some sleep.. If I can manage to get comfy. I've been feeling jittery tonight and can't seem to get comfy at all.. UGH
Hope my girls and Aiden are sleeping better then I am..
Morgan took a full bottle for me yesterday and Riley took 20 ml's. How excited was I?? I think I did a jig.. Well I told Riley if she would take atleast 20 I'd dance a jig for her, and she did so I did too. LOL
Then today.. (drum roll) guess who surprised there mommy and took a full bottle.. YES Miss Riley Lorene. I came in and the nurse told me and I almost fell down. I was so excited that it made me hyper. By the end of the night she took one full and almost a second full feed. Morgan has come close too. They are catching on, it's my pep talks telling them this is all they need to get sprung and out of that place.
The nurse tonight said that she has twins before that did the same thing, that they told the parents that in about a week and a half they might be close to going home, then she got the honor of calling them two days later to tell them one of there girls was coming home and the second twin went home the next day. It's like a switch she said, it clicks on and they just get it, so here is hoping our switch clicks very soon and out little ones are home in there own crib driving us crazy really soon... I miss them.. Until then I am off to get some sleep.. If I can manage to get comfy. I've been feeling jittery tonight and can't seem to get comfy at all.. UGH
Hope my girls and Aiden are sleeping better then I am..
Thursday, October 4, 2007
October 4, 2007
Together Again!!
Morgan Kennidi
Riley Lorene
Babies are doing well and I am proud to say both breastfed yesterday and today like champs. I tried Riley today at her 6pm feeding and she did great for 15 minutes. I then did Morgan at 8 who did awesome too. I tried Riley again at 9 and she was just too tired and wanted no part of it. She much rather sleep, which she did on my chest all snuggly and cute.
When I got in today they finally had there new crib and were sleeping together. (SO CUTE!) and Riley had her shirt on that said "If you think I'm cute you should see my twin". Morgan however didn't have hers on, besides it was changing time soon enough any way.
When I did change them tonight, lets just say the pictures say it all.. (DOUBLE TROUBLE)
I'm still falling in love with the fact that these beautiful babies are mine.
Morgan also too 35 from a bottle today.. Almost a full bottle, how awesome is that. Riley never got a bottle today since I breast fed her when I got in and then tried again at 9, she probably won't get one at midnight and will have to wait until tomorrow.
We are getting close in so many ways, we just need to catch up on feedings. There weights are good too. Riley was 4 lbs 13 oz and Morgan was 4 lbs 5 oz.. One more day down is one more day closer to home..
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
October 3, 2007
I saw the girls last night, I got in about 6:15 and couldn't hold Riley cause of the, once there feeding we leave them alone rule. (it really depends on the nurse) I felt so bad cause she was wide awake and holding my hand and staring at me like why are you not taking me out mommy. So I waited it out til her next feed at 9.
Morgan got fed at 8 and I took her out, we changed her, took her temp and weight and dressed her. Then i tried to bottle her (not breatfeed) so I could see how much she took. Not so bad she took 21 for me, which is about half for her. A full feed for Morgan is 43ml's.
We hung out til 9 and it was Ri's turn. Same routine and in the mean time I let Annette (Aiden's godmother) hold Morgan (something some nurses frown on but too bad I say.) Then we tried to bottle Ri. No such luck, she took 2, and well I think most of that was on the bib, she wanted no part of the bottle.. I was bummed out...
It's so hard when you just want to show them how it's done. You just want to give them your knowledge and tell them once you get this you can come home baby girl. UGH!!!
I am taking it one day at a time cause it's all I can do, but please pray that they get it soon. It's heart wrenching to not have them home, to not see them everyday and to have them struggle no matter how little the struggle is compared to some. I've been down the super roller coaster ride of the NICU and all it's struggles, I don't wish it upon anyone, and although this NICU stay should be a breeze, I still hurt inside not having my babies home with there family.
Morgan got fed at 8 and I took her out, we changed her, took her temp and weight and dressed her. Then i tried to bottle her (not breatfeed) so I could see how much she took. Not so bad she took 21 for me, which is about half for her. A full feed for Morgan is 43ml's.
We hung out til 9 and it was Ri's turn. Same routine and in the mean time I let Annette (Aiden's godmother) hold Morgan (something some nurses frown on but too bad I say.) Then we tried to bottle Ri. No such luck, she took 2, and well I think most of that was on the bib, she wanted no part of the bottle.. I was bummed out...
It's so hard when you just want to show them how it's done. You just want to give them your knowledge and tell them once you get this you can come home baby girl. UGH!!!
I am taking it one day at a time cause it's all I can do, but please pray that they get it soon. It's heart wrenching to not have them home, to not see them everyday and to have them struggle no matter how little the struggle is compared to some. I've been down the super roller coaster ride of the NICU and all it's struggles, I don't wish it upon anyone, and although this NICU stay should be a breeze, I still hurt inside not having my babies home with there family.
Monday, October 1, 2007
October 1, 2007
Baby Blues, Hormones, Grrrrrrrr...
I didn't get to see my girls today and that just sucks. With Daddy still in and out of work trying to save as many days as he can for when they come home, it leaves us searching for a sitter since I am still not allowed to pick up Aiden due to my C-section. Even if he was home it still leaves us searching for a sitter to go see the girls, which hasn't been as easy as it sounds. So today made the 2nd day (not in a row) that I wasn't able to go in to see, hold and feed them. The first day was a super baby blues day. I broke down in tears when things fell through and I couldn't go in. (I also am not allowed to drive yet which is a real pain in the butt cause I can't go in alone and leave Aiden with Chuck nor can I go here or there to just get out and do stuff.
Today "we" had a sitter to be with us while Daddy was at work, and tomorrow and wed he is home cause no one is around to help out. I also have a ride in to see the girls which I am hoping pans out to be around feeding time since the nurses don't like to take them out of there isolets if its non feeding time.
As for the girls well both were having spells but today is day number two that neither had a single one.. YAY but there still not bottling full feeds and that is a biggie. Morgan is taking usually half of her feed by bottle when they try her, some days less. Riley is only taking about 5 to 7 ml and that is no where close. (A full feed for them is about 45 ml)
Although the nurse today didn't try them all morning and the night nurse tried them at there 8 & 9pm feed (Morgan eats at 12, 4, & 8 and Riley 1, 5, & 9) We are going to ask why they don't attempt to bottle them more then once a day or if that was a "just today thing" I don't see how they are going to get the hang of it, if they don't try as often as possible. The nurse says not to be discouraged and that they will get it eventually however as Chuck says we are not fans of that word. That is what they said about Aiden. He'd get it "eventually" and well 16 months later and he still doesn't have it...
They did however change Riley's feeding times again to 9, 12, 3, & 6 to give her less to digest at a time and help with her spitting up. (She's my spitter) although Morgan can hold her own when she wants too.. We will see if this helps. (Riley will now get 35ml a feed)
Fingers are crossed that they will be home by there 37 week mark or very soon after.. I pray everyday that it's sooner then later.. I know there in a good place and it also gives me a chance to heal but I miss them so much.. Just typing it makes me cry so I am going to stop before Chuck notices and wonders what malfunction I am having now..
I didn't get to see my girls today and that just sucks. With Daddy still in and out of work trying to save as many days as he can for when they come home, it leaves us searching for a sitter since I am still not allowed to pick up Aiden due to my C-section. Even if he was home it still leaves us searching for a sitter to go see the girls, which hasn't been as easy as it sounds. So today made the 2nd day (not in a row) that I wasn't able to go in to see, hold and feed them. The first day was a super baby blues day. I broke down in tears when things fell through and I couldn't go in. (I also am not allowed to drive yet which is a real pain in the butt cause I can't go in alone and leave Aiden with Chuck nor can I go here or there to just get out and do stuff.
Today "we" had a sitter to be with us while Daddy was at work, and tomorrow and wed he is home cause no one is around to help out. I also have a ride in to see the girls which I am hoping pans out to be around feeding time since the nurses don't like to take them out of there isolets if its non feeding time.
As for the girls well both were having spells but today is day number two that neither had a single one.. YAY but there still not bottling full feeds and that is a biggie. Morgan is taking usually half of her feed by bottle when they try her, some days less. Riley is only taking about 5 to 7 ml and that is no where close. (A full feed for them is about 45 ml)
Although the nurse today didn't try them all morning and the night nurse tried them at there 8 & 9pm feed (Morgan eats at 12, 4, & 8 and Riley 1, 5, & 9) We are going to ask why they don't attempt to bottle them more then once a day or if that was a "just today thing" I don't see how they are going to get the hang of it, if they don't try as often as possible. The nurse says not to be discouraged and that they will get it eventually however as Chuck says we are not fans of that word. That is what they said about Aiden. He'd get it "eventually" and well 16 months later and he still doesn't have it...
They did however change Riley's feeding times again to 9, 12, 3, & 6 to give her less to digest at a time and help with her spitting up. (She's my spitter) although Morgan can hold her own when she wants too.. We will see if this helps. (Riley will now get 35ml a feed)
Fingers are crossed that they will be home by there 37 week mark or very soon after.. I pray everyday that it's sooner then later.. I know there in a good place and it also gives me a chance to heal but I miss them so much.. Just typing it makes me cry so I am going to stop before Chuck notices and wonders what malfunction I am having now..
Saturday, September 29, 2007
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